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max "FUK U I'M A DRAGON" kiesler ([personal profile] burnination) wrote2015-11-24 05:52 pm

Eudio IC Inbox; un: maximoose



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[personal profile] medievals 2016-04-19 04:33 am (UTC)(link)
Meet me in an hour

[ he's riding on horseback, okay, it'll take him a little longer to get there than by car, or whatever else. ]
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[personal profile] medievals 2016-04-19 05:59 am (UTC)(link)
[ arthur doesn't immediately say anything, lets the silence linger between them uncomfortably while he finishes with the reigns. he isn't quite sure what to say, either, even if he's been thinking about this for quite some time. it's all a little different when it's finally happening, and arthur isn't sure where to start. he knows, logically, of course, he should say hello. ]

Max. [ alright, not quite a hello, but it's acknowledgement of max's presence, which is a start. ] I should -- [ he hesitates, stroking his horse's mane idly. then, after a moment, he clears his throat. ] I owe you an apology. I was ... harsh, and quick to judge you unfairly, not based on your character, but -- my predisposition to mistrust those with magic. You have only ever shown me kindness, and I've rewarded that kindness with fear and anger.

[ merlin was right, of course. there comes a time when one should know when to put instinct before experience, and this is one of those times. it doesn't feel right to push people away who have never done a single thing wrong. so he bows his head, not out of humiliation, but humility, a show of deep respect. ] For that, you have my deepest regrets. The only thing I ask of you now is your forgiveness, if you're willing. [ arthur doesn't entirely thinks he deserves it, but that's for max to decide. ]
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[personal profile] medievals 2016-04-21 04:07 am (UTC)(link)
[ arthur is immensely more grateful for max's assertiveness than he would ever admit, because feelings aren't exactly arthur's strong suit. he can only be so mushy before he feels like he has to backpedal out of being nice entirely. he can't let people know he's actually soft. thankfully, max just barrels on and it's a relief they don't have to discuss this any further. arthur won't forget, but forgiveness is all he asked for. ]

I appreciate your vote of confidence. [ especially since he still doesn't quite believe it himself, this whole growing to be the world's most legendary king business. but as long as things are square between them now, they can just move on. thank god this wasn't as awkward as he thought it would be. ]

[ he shoots max a strange look at the word gayer, because -- well, gay doesn't exactly mean what it does now, so he's not sure why getting gayer would be a bad thing. or an awkward thing? he can't tell. ]
What do you mean by gayer? [ he has a feeling it doesn't mean happy. ]
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[personal profile] medievals 2016-04-24 05:07 am (UTC)(link)
[ homosexual. well, okay then. how about let's just change the subject. even if it's something that arthur has kind of been weighing in on recently, whether he wants to or not. lowell called it loved; but, sometimes, arthur thinks it's more than that. more than just an emotion, but a desire, and that's what he's really unsure of. ]

[ he shoots max an odd arch of his eyebrow. ]
Right. [ that's about all he has to say about that, for now. yes, lions sound much more appealing than this gay conversation. ]

[ he follows max toward the entrance, carefully considering whether he should actually ask -- ]
Are you...? [ except, whoops, he said that out loud. guess they're having this conversation anyway. ]
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[personal profile] medievals 2016-04-25 06:08 am (UTC)(link)
[ arthur is the least observant when it comes to anyone other than, say, merlin, so no, of course he hadn't noticed before. he's also just not perceptive about that kind of thing, because homosexual isn't something he assumes anyone would be. he thinks of it more as a persuasion and not a who you are, born with it kind of deal. it's something people do in private in the middle of the night, and it's certainly not anything he expects anyone to admit to being. it's complicated. ]

[ regardless, he's never particularly cared what any person does behind closed doors. if that's what max is into, it's really none of his business. he might give him kind of a look, not entirely judgmental, just curious. being ... gay isn't exactly a reputation anyone in camelot would want to have. he's still getting used to how much things have changed. ]

[ a day pass acquired for himself, he makes his way over to max once he's through the gate, brows furrowed in contemplation. ]
Men and women. [ it isn't a question, more of a confirmation. ] You like ... both? [ he wasn't even aware that was a thing... ur breaking his brain, max. ]
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[personal profile] medievals 2016-04-27 05:02 am (UTC)(link)
[ arthur still doesn't get it. his brain just hasn't been programmed to comprehend the complex concept of sexuality, so even when max points out a boy and a girl, he doesn't get it. he doesn't see anything except a boy and a girl. maybe it's also just the fact that the word "hot" is foreign to him and far too forward. he might agree the girl is pretty and the boy has handsome features, but that's as far as he would go. he has a feeling he's doing it wrong. ]

[ he continues to mull it over while max pulls him over to the lemurs, and he's more distracted by his thoughts than the strange animals in front of him. he seems to be staring at them curiously, but he's still stuck on this whole concept of liking boys and girls. arthur has looked at gwen and thought her beautiful, of course; now, there are days he looks at merlin and has to will himself to stop. he's not sure if it's the same thing. ]

[ it's certainly not in any carnal sense, which is generally the feeling he gets from max half the time. "hot" seems to indicate more of a lust, he's noticed, even as casually as people use it. it doesn't seem quite appropriate, but things have changed a lot since his time. ]


How did you figure it out? [ because, certainly, arthur never would in a place like camelot, where there are expectations of who and what he's supposed to be. he's always lived by those expectations -- charmed noble ladies because that's what princes do. it never would have occurred to him he could be anything else, until here, until now. until merlin, really. ]
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[personal profile] medievals 2016-05-03 06:47 am (UTC)(link)
[ oh, it's definitely missed. but it probably is a good thing, that arthur completely misses it, or he might be a lot less willing to let max touch him like he's currently doing. mostly, arthur just stares at him like he's not quite sure what's going on (he isn't quite sure what's going on), but he lets max do as he pleases, because ... well, if it's part of a test, he should let him do it. he did ask, didn't he? how max knew. there's part of him that feels he's being made a fool of, right around the time max moves his face to and fro, but then -- ]

[ things change, abruptly, and max is much closer than arthur expected, and he's touching him in ways he's never allowed anyone to touch him before. not even merlin would ever cross this line (though there have been times when he's been close, a hand smoothing arthur's shirt, fingers brushing through his hair during other nightly rituals, but there always remains a line, invisible and uncrossable). max isn't merlin, of course. what was he thinking? ]

[ it happens so fast arthur isn't even sure what he's supposed to do. which isn't to say he's unaccustomed to being kissed, but -- well, yes, one might say that he is. he's only ever kissed gwen, and it wasn't like this. it felt different, calmer, less like a fire in gut and more like being awoken from a pleasant dream. he's not entirely sure what that means. so he stands there, awkwardly stiff, his mouth only parting slightly near the end, when his brain finally catches up to the rest of him. he wouldn't really consider it kissing back. more like ... gaping in the middle of being kissed. ]

[ which is exactly his expression when max pulls away and goes back to looking at the lemurs. did he like it? he has no idea. he's still processing the fact that it happened at all. he can't even decide if he's mad or not. he still doesn't look at the lemurs, too busy staring bemusedly at max. he's probably never going to understand this. ]


You kissed me. [ thankfully, he sounds more incredulous than angry. and yes, it's obvious, but it's helping him process. sort of. saying it out loud makes it seem more real than it felt. he's just trying to work through this, and his mind is only full of an incoherent jumble of thoughts, mostly involving what it would be like to kiss merlin (and wondering why he's even thinking about that in the first place), so aloud is working better for him. ]

[ he hesitates for a moment, but then his voice goes slightly softer, almost as if he's ashamed, though he doesn't know what for. maybe just because ... he hasn't thought of gwen much, lately. since when did merlin become the forefront of his mind? arthur wonders if maybe he always was and gwen was simply a distraction. he hates to think of her like that. ]
It was different than kissing Gwen. [ because he's going to be stuck on this kissing thing for a while. is that normal??? shouldn't kissing just be the same with anyone??? tell him these secrets, max. ]
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84 YEARS LATER WE DO WHAT WE WANT

[personal profile] medievals 2020-01-29 04:41 am (UTC)(link)
( the fact that he's ... actually considering max's proposal (or whatever it is you want to call it; proposition might be a better word) says a lot more for his state of mind than the expression on his face, which is still somewhere between pensive and completely, utterly lost. he doesn't know what blowjobs are (have they been invented yet? surely, but arthur doesn't exactly keep that sort of company and the term itself is much more modern than he is) but he's fairly certain it's sexual in nature, because half of everything max says to him is sexual in nature. that's just the way he is. and it doesn't bother arthur, not really, he's just not used to that kind of ... flamboyancy. conceal, don't feel is more how arthur rolls.

that said.
)

I might put more effort into it if I knew what I were doing. ( he sounds almost petulant. but mostly, he's just embarrassed. maybe he should be checking out these lemurs after all. he turns, a meager glance in the animals' direction. what must it feel like to not have all these complicated emotions? to be able to just exist without a care in the world? no responsibility, just the natural order of things. then, just briefly, he wonders if there's such a thing as gay lemurs. probably not.

after another moment, he sighs, frustratedly more than defeatedly, though he feels like somehow he has lost, maybe to himself. he's still trying to wrap his head around all of this, but he always has been more of a see it to believe it kind of man. maybe the same concept applies to ... well, whatever it is that he feels when he sees merlin, or when max kisses him. a spark, the tiniest flame of desire.

he glances back at max, his friend, someone he trusts. someone with much more knowledge of intimate relationships than arthur.
) These experiments. Would you ... ( uh, he's bad at this. how to say this without sounding like a total fool? ) That is to say, I would need guidance.
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[personal profile] medievals 2020-01-29 06:26 am (UTC)(link)
( it really isn't reassuring when half of what max says to him he doesn't understand, and, naturally, he pulls a face of someone trying very hard to understand a foreign language while also trying not to look like they've assumed what was said was something horribly offensive — )

My wha— ( but then max is cutting him off, telling him not to worry about what queer sensei means (and arthur, truly, has no earthly concept of its meaning) and grabbing his wrist, which arthur does not immediately yank away. honestly, he's been manhandled by merlin often enough, he's used to this, even if there should be some etiquette when it comes to commoners touching crown princes (there is, of course, merlin just doesn't follow it, and max is too ... forward to bother with such practices, especially in a place that thrives on touch). nothing arthur knows seems to apply here, and he's having quite a time trying to throw it all out the window. he expects to be respected, and yet he also finds that the thrill of the unexpected is quite enticing, even if he's momentarily offended by it.

which is why he sounds a bit prissy when he replies,
) Where in God's name are you taking me?

( don't think he didn't see that little magic thing you just did, maxwell. though the magic is the least of his concerns; it's the fact that they seem to be breaking in to somewhere restricted that's ruffling arthur's naturally chivalrous feathers. )